Questions That Will Never be Answered

When did the hatred begin
When did the seeds of bitterness begin
Why did you leave
Were we not together forever
Were we not the same
When did we change
When did you start believing the lies
Why are you this way
Was it truth when you said "I love you"
Were you ever happy
Do we not have the same values
Do we not have the same morals
Do we not believe in the same God

Many people have close friends in their lives that are meant for a season, some have close friends that are meant for a lifetime. When things begin to fall apart, when things begin to seem as though they will never return to how things used to be, what do we do? I have asked these questions many times. I lay awake at night wondering these questions and more. The only sanity I get when my mind starts going in circles because of these questions is simply breathing. I breathe. I breathe and remember all the good things that God has blessed me with. I remember the times that I was the most happy. Even though these questions will never be answered, I have faith that one day, my heart will be at peace. I have forgiven, I just would like to know why...

This experience has made me stronger. Everywhere I go I meet someone that has gone through the same things I have gone through. With no answers I am still able to influence and help someone who is right there, right there where I was.

I pray for this person often. I pray God's love for this person. I pray happiness and joy for this person. I pray someday this person will speak to me again. I pray that this person will always feel worth and accomplishment in their decisions. I pray this person has no regrets.